Bloggity Blog Blog….what should I blog about? I have a lot on my mind today. Not sure how to get them down in words…just a lot of things going on around us that I don’t understand. I know it’s not my job to understand, but I get tired of hearing about it all. People love drama. They thrive on it. I’m trying to accept people for who they are…that’s what we should do. But, at some point I just want to shake them and scream “You’re crazy!”
I’m not perfect. People hopefully accept the crazy things I do. I have a bad habit of expecting people to act the way I want them too. I hold them to a standard that I would be willing to do. But do I? Am I the best friend etc. that I should be? I doubt I am 100% of the time.
I have to let go of expectations. I’m only causing myself pain. I set myself up for discomfort because I have these expectations, that aren’t always unrealistic, and when it doesn’t pan out my way I’m upset. Why do I do this and why is it so hard to not be this way?
I pride myself on being honest and feel like it’s the key to communication, but when it comes down to being real with people (that really matter to me) I’m more afraid that I might hurt their feelings. Instead of calling *enter name here* and saying “hey…i need to talk about something that’s bothering me….blah blah blah.” It’s easier to sit around and just do nothing about it.
Have you noticed anything about this post? It went from other people driving me crazy to me! WTF! The truth is….it’s all me. People are people. Like it or not. That’s who they are and I can’t change it. I can only change me and the attitude I’m willing to have. I don’t want to feel this way. I need to release the negativity around me and let it go.
Thanks for listening to me rant.
What a day! I feel like since I’ve changed my attitude things are so much better. Who would have thought?
I’m not perfect, although I like to make people think that. My kids drive me nuts most days. You know what has helped me with that? I’ve excepted them for who they are. Kids are kids. Bonus and Atticus are so different. Atticus is calm, quiet (most of the time), and likes to cuddle. Bonus is my little wild man. He is running non stop, loud, and full of life 24/7. It’s hard for me to get Bonus to calm down. Why does he have so much energy? It was a constant battle between him and me all day, until my husband said to me “That’s just how Bonus is. We have to accept him for that. We shouldn’t try to change him.” Why did it take him saying that for me to figure it out? #1 mom here shouldn’t need someone to tell her that. I’ve realized lately I’ve been a little on edge. I can’t snap at the kids because they’re having fun. Maybe they’re being to loud. I’ve realized the kids don’t know why I’m upset if I don’t explain why I need them to be quieter. If I freak out on them they think they’re in trouble for simply having fun! How wrong is that?
Not only has it helped them, it’s helped my attitude tremendously. Thanks to my husband I’ve been able to step back and take a look at myself. I feel less tense. The kids listen better. Overall there’s a better vibe in the house.
Today I took the kids over to play with their friend Foster. Here’s a picture of all three boys. It’s hard to get them to look at the camera at the same time.
The boys had a great time playing with Foster. I think we are taking them to the zoo next week since the weather has been so nice! They will love that. After we left Foster’s house, we had dinner with Pam (mom in law) and headed home. We had a great day today. I love my boys.
Just know if your kids drive you nuts…you’re not the only mom that feels that way. Just take a deep breath and accept it. We’re not perfect and neither are they. No matter what is going wrong, it could always be worse. Being a parent is tough, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.
Today was a good day. I’m not going to lie and say I had the best attitude all day, but overall great day.
Granny watched the boys for us while we took care of some stuff. It was nice to get that time with Jeremy. It’s rare that we get away during the day with no kids. We met up with my friend Cindy and had lunch. She is from Arkansas and travels here with business once a month. I picked where we ate, so I was pleased with the selection!
Back to my attitude…It wasn’t horrible, but it definitely needs some work. I am catching myself throughout the day and I know that something isn’t right. Maybe it’s hormones? Maybe I’m just crazy? I tell myself I’m not crazy! Does that make me crazy? My husband says yes! 🙂
I guess it’s a good thing that I realize I’m doing it. I just need to learn how to catch myself and pull myself from that zone faster. Why should I waste my emotions on something that’s really not that big of a deal? So what if my husbands computer is louder than id like it to be at 11 o’clock at night. Will it make the situation better if I snap at him and tell him it’s annoying me? NO! He’d probably just laugh at me and go on watching his YouTube video!
I need to remember to not sweat the small stuff.
Focus on what is actually important.
You’d think that wouldn’t be so hard. For someone like my husband, it’s not. I’m glad I have him here to keep me in check.
I was faced with something today that I didn’t really want to deal with. I had a bad attitude at first, but it slowly wore away. I realize now it’s not a big deal, but I make it a big deal in my head. Then what happens? I stress out. Is it worth it? Never.
It may take sometime, but I
want to will change. I want to be the best that I know I can be. The best wife, mother, friend, business partner, etc.
Today was a good day. I’m making progress and that’s what counts.
I’ve felt so much better lately. My attitude has been so down in the dumps and I just needed something to change. I don’t know if it was anything specific or maybe it was finally just the end of my rope. I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m sure my husband and children are glad. 🙂
My doctor gave me great news today. No more therapy for this girl!! I have (hopefully) my last check up in 4 weeks and I will be done! Talk about HAPPY!
We also took about a week long vacation last week. We had a great time with our family and a lot of time to just relax. I love hanging out with the kids and Jeremy. I am so lucky to have a great little family. Marley is growing up so fast these days. She is so sweet…especially for a teenager. I dread the day she is to busy to hang out with her family. Its part of growing up, I know. I do love the time we’ve had together lately. She is the best big sister. The boys look up to her so much and can’t wait for her to come stay with us. By Thursday they are pretty much on a count down to picking her up.
Here’s a great picture I snapped while we were down by the river.
Great picture right? I tried to get Bonus to just smile, but this is totally his personality. He is a ham. He turned 4 a few weeks ago. Talk about time flying. Where did my baby go? Again, just looking at that picture makes me feel so lucky to have them.
Want to see something else totally great? Yes? Okay!!
Look what my great hubby made!
Is this not adorable!? I love it. We’re going to be revamping my craft room soon and he’s going to make me some for my supplies. I’m so excited. I love the gray stain. It’s just beautiful.
Well…It’s technically Friday. 12:30 am, but I had a great Thursday! I’m getting sleepy, better get some rest. August is turning out to be a great month. Wonder what tomorrow will hold? I can’t wait to find out. It’s so great to feel happy and positive again. Why do we ever get in those moods of negativity? Must stay positive! Happiness is a choice. I’d rather be happy anyday. 🙂
I hope today you will choose happiness too.
See you tomorrow.
Hello friends. I have some wonderful news to share with you. A few post ago I told you about our wreck and how I broke my left hand. I had my cast removed June 6th and since then I’ve been doing hand therapy 2-3 times a week. It’s an hour drive there and an hour drive back, an hour and a half of therapy, and it hurts!! Talk about taking up a lot of time throughout my week! Do I want my hand better? YES! So…I know it’s worth it. I’ve been so frustrated with my progress. Just wanting to be better and get on with my life. My attitude has been in such a slump lately.
Well….today I got great news! My hand is not exactly perfect, but it’s getting there! My therapist says with a lot of work at home I may be able to stop coming in every week! I am so thrilled. I have my actual doctor appointment tomorrow and it’s really up to her. But, the fact that my therapist feels like I am so close to not coming is a huge step. I feel like finally I’ve made some real progress and I’m almost there. A big sigh of relief! I think I’ve been smiling since I left the therapist this morning. 🙂
Today has been a great day! I hope everyone is having a great Wednesday. We’re off to Granny’s house. She’s making us dinner and my tummy is hungry.
See you tomorrow.