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Hello!!! How about this blog everyday thing?! Geez…talk about slacker. Believe me, I do think about blogging everyday. But just like tonight…it’s 1:52 am and I’m just now blogging. Luckily, I’m not dead tired and thought I’d write a quick post before crashing. By the time I actually finish this post, it’ll be 2:30ish. -Yes…my tiny boring posts usually take at least that long- So…I know I’ve gotta get back on track, but at the same time at least my blog is not updated once a month like it use to be. I am blogging pretty regularly and that was what I wanted to get in the habit of doing. Is this an excuse not to blog everyday like I intended? NO! I am still dedicated to fulfilling my commitment…but life happens. So, I missed a few days. Big deal…I’ll get back on track. I just don’t want to beat myself up about it.

Anyhoodles…The weather here has been a little chilly to say the least. I’m sure there are other places packed with snow and no we haven’t gotten any YET! We are supposed to get snow tomorrow and guess what I’m doing? Bridesmaid shopping. Yes…My friend Morgan is crazy!! Do I think it could wait until the weather was better…sure…but I am also looking forward to a day with the ladies and no kids!! Girls day! I am a little excited to try a formal dress on….Besides shopping for my wedding dress, I haven’t tried on a formal dress since high school…granted I was about 30 pounds lighter and had a tan…lets hope my experience doesn’t turn out depressing. LOL  Either way I’m sure it’ll be fun. And probably motivating for me to get back on the exercise train. Lord knows I need to lose about 10-15 more pounds. I’d be happy with that.

I was going to post a few pictures before I closed this post, but my phone is being wacky and won’t email my pictures. Dumb phone!! I will let you know how our dress shopping goes tomorrow. Enjoy your Sunday!

BTW…It’s 2:25 am…I was pretty close to my estimate.

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Bloggity Blog Blog….what should I blog about? I have a lot on my mind today. Not sure how to get them down in words…just a lot of things going on around us that I don’t understand. I know it’s not my job to understand, but I get tired of hearing about it all. People love drama. They thrive on it. I’m trying to accept people for who they are…that’s what we should do. But, at some point I just want to shake them and scream “You’re crazy!”

I’m not perfect. People hopefully accept the crazy things I do. I have a bad habit of expecting people to act the way I want them too. I hold them to a standard that I would be willing to do. But do I? Am I the best friend etc. that I should be? I doubt I am 100% of the time.

I have to let go of expectations. I’m only causing myself pain. I set myself up for discomfort because I have these expectations, that aren’t always unrealistic, and when it doesn’t pan out my way I’m upset. Why do I do this and why is it so hard to not be this way?

I pride myself on being honest and feel like it’s the key to communication, but when it comes down to being real with people (that really matter to me) I’m more afraid that I might hurt their feelings. Instead of calling *enter name here* and saying “hey…i need to talk about something that’s bothering me….blah blah blah.” It’s easier to sit around and just do nothing about it.

Have you noticed anything about this post? It went from other people driving me crazy to me! WTF! The truth is….it’s all me. People are people. Like it or not. That’s who they are and I can’t change it. I can only change me and the attitude I’m willing to have. I don’t want to feel this way. I need to release the negativity around me and let it go.

Thanks for listening to me rant.

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What a day! I feel like since I’ve changed my attitude things are so much better. Who would have thought?

I’m not perfect, although I like to make people think that. My kids drive me nuts most days. You know what has helped me with that? I’ve excepted them for who they are. Kids are kids. Bonus and Atticus are so different. Atticus is calm, quiet (most of the time), and likes to cuddle. Bonus is my little wild man. He is running non stop, loud, and full of life 24/7. It’s hard for me to get Bonus to calm down. Why does he have so much energy? It was a constant battle between him and me all day, until my husband said to me “That’s just how Bonus is. We have to accept him for that. We shouldn’t try to change him.” Why did it take him saying that for me to figure it out? #1 mom here shouldn’t need someone to tell her that. I’ve realized lately I’ve been a little on edge. I can’t snap at the kids because they’re having fun. Maybe they’re being to loud. I’ve realized the kids don’t know why I’m upset if I don’t explain why I need them to be quieter. If I freak out on them they think they’re in trouble for simply having fun! How wrong is that?

Not only has it helped them, it’s helped my attitude tremendously. Thanks to my husband I’ve been able to step back and take a look at myself. I feel less tense. The kids listen better. Overall there’s a better vibe in the house.

Today I took the kids over to play with their friend Foster. Here’s a picture of all three boys. It’s hard to get them to look at the camera at the same time.

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The boys had a great time playing with Foster. I think we are taking them to the zoo next week since the weather has been so nice! They will love that. After we left Foster’s house, we had dinner with Pam (mom in law) and headed home. We had a great day today. I love my boys.

Just know if your kids drive you nuts…you’re not the only mom that feels that way. Just take a deep breath and accept it. We’re not perfect and neither are they. No matter what is going wrong, it could always be worse. Being a parent is tough, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

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Kids. We have great kids. Like, super great. I am thankful for the kids we have everyday…But no matter how awesome your kids are, there’s always those times when you just want to pull your hair out!

We had a great day today. Home school went great. Atticus and Bonus are doing amazingly well. Atticus is older and is pretty good at working on his own once he is given instruction. Bonus usually needs more help, but that’s expected for his age. I can tell his attention span is getting better and he is starting to enjoy his school work more and more each day. I love working with them side by side. When Bonus does something good, he always wants his brother to come over and check it out. It’s so cute!!

After school we went to the park. It was so hot today, but that never keeps them away! They could stay for hours if we’d let them. Once we left there, we went and chatted with my grandma and headed home.

At this point it has already been a long day. No naps. They did lay down for a bit, but never fell asleep. All in all….things were going good.

Then we decided to go to the book store.  Once we pulled up they were excited because they know the kids section has toys. Not just any toys….Thomas the Train.  While Jeremy looked for a book, I took the kids to the their section. They played with those trains for a long time. They were having a great time and playing well with each other.

Then it was time to leave.

Atticus did well. When Jeremy said we were leaving, he dropped his things and was ready to go. Bonus on the other hand….let’s just say he got loud. “I never want to leave!” He even said we had to stay forever. FOREVER! Jeremy picked him up screaming and kicking. We were both so embarrassed! I know he was tired. I know others have kids and they know what it’s like. But really!? Why must they act so crazy in public? Bonus is stubborn. He gets that from his dad. When he feels strongly about something he sticks to his guns. I’m sure this will come in handy when he’s older. 😉 But right now, I’d really just like to leave a store without everyone staring at us!!!

That’s not too much to ask is it?

But who couldn’t love these faces? They are just to darn cute to be mad forever.

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See you tomorrow.

Steph Shock