Bloggity Blog Blog….what should I blog about? I have a lot on my mind today. Not sure how to get them down in words…just a lot of things going on around us that I don’t understand. I know it’s not my job to understand, but I get tired of hearing about it all. People love drama. They thrive on it. I’m trying to accept people for who they are…that’s what we should do. But, at some point I just want to shake them and scream “You’re crazy!”
I’m not perfect. People hopefully accept the crazy things I do. I have a bad habit of expecting people to act the way I want them too. I hold them to a standard that I would be willing to do. But do I? Am I the best friend etc. that I should be? I doubt I am 100% of the time.
I have to let go of expectations. I’m only causing myself pain. I set myself up for discomfort because I have these expectations, that aren’t always unrealistic, and when it doesn’t pan out my way I’m upset. Why do I do this and why is it so hard to not be this way?
I pride myself on being honest and feel like it’s the key to communication, but when it comes down to being real with people (that really matter to me) I’m more afraid that I might hurt their feelings. Instead of calling *enter name here* and saying “hey…i need to talk about something that’s bothering me….blah blah blah.” It’s easier to sit around and just do nothing about it.
Have you noticed anything about this post? It went from other people driving me crazy to me! WTF! The truth is….it’s all me. People are people. Like it or not. That’s who they are and I can’t change it. I can only change me and the attitude I’m willing to have. I don’t want to feel this way. I need to release the negativity around me and let it go.
Thanks for listening to me rant.
Ever have one of those days when it’s going really swell and then there’s that one thing that pops up and tries to ruin everything?! That happened to me today.
Everything was going great. Woke up early (not as early as I intended, but early!) had some coffee, made a few phone calls before the kids woke up, and the morning was going great. The kids woke up and we had breakfast and they had a chance to play before we started school. Everything was going really smooth and it stayed that way for most of the day. Jeremy started back at the tattoo shop today and he arrived back home around 4. We were glad to have him home with us. He was home for about 30 minutes before I got a phone call that would ruin my good mood. I won’t go into details, but let’s just say I was a little irritated. Thankfully my husband was here to help me stay level-headed and get me to think about the way I was feeling.
It’s so easy to have one thing happen and it ruin your entire day. But, why do we let it? It’s our decision to feel that way. I told my husband I just needed 5 minutes to feel this way and I’d be done. You know what? It works. Give yourself that allocated time and let yourself feel sorry for yourself or whatever it is you feel. Then make the decision to be over it. That’s it…you’re done. You’d be amazed at what this does for you. No matter how mad I am, nothing is so bad that I should let it ruin the time with my husband and kids. They deserve more than that and so do I.
It’s hard to do this at first, but if you practice it enough it gets easier and you will find that your stress levels go way down. You can’t control everything, but you can control yourself. I know I’ve said it before, but I am so thankful for Jerms. I have learned so much from him and we are continuously growing. (I love that man!)
Maybe you already practice this, but there may be someone out there who needs to hear this. Sometimes I read or hear something and I think ‘Duh! Why didn’t I think of that before?’ Sometime’s you just need to hear it from someone else’s point of view and it just makes perfect sense. Don’t let that one thing or person ruin your happiness. It’s not worth it! Choose to be happy. It’s better that way!
Today was a good day. I’m not going to lie and say I had the best attitude all day, but overall great day.
Granny watched the boys for us while we took care of some stuff. It was nice to get that time with Jeremy. It’s rare that we get away during the day with no kids. We met up with my friend Cindy and had lunch. She is from Arkansas and travels here with business once a month. I picked where we ate, so I was pleased with the selection!
Back to my attitude…It wasn’t horrible, but it definitely needs some work. I am catching myself throughout the day and I know that something isn’t right. Maybe it’s hormones? Maybe I’m just crazy? I tell myself I’m not crazy! Does that make me crazy? My husband says yes! 🙂
I guess it’s a good thing that I realize I’m doing it. I just need to learn how to catch myself and pull myself from that zone faster. Why should I waste my emotions on something that’s really not that big of a deal? So what if my husbands computer is louder than id like it to be at 11 o’clock at night. Will it make the situation better if I snap at him and tell him it’s annoying me? NO! He’d probably just laugh at me and go on watching his YouTube video!
I need to remember to not sweat the small stuff.
Focus on what is actually important.
You’d think that wouldn’t be so hard. For someone like my husband, it’s not. I’m glad I have him here to keep me in check.
I was faced with something today that I didn’t really want to deal with. I had a bad attitude at first, but it slowly wore away. I realize now it’s not a big deal, but I make it a big deal in my head. Then what happens? I stress out. Is it worth it? Never.
It may take sometime, but I
want to will change. I want to be the best that I know I can be. The best wife, mother, friend, business partner, etc.
Today was a good day. I’m making progress and that’s what counts.
Remember back a few posts when I went on about life and how I need to stop taking it for granted? Well…I should go back and read it.
I’ve been in a funk the last few days. I don’t know why. I’ve just been in one of those moods where certain people just get on my last nerve. I get tired of hearing people complain…it could be about the simplest thing…they just go on and on. I think to myself “Stop complaining!” (I think to myself because I’m to chicken to say how I actually feel) So, I come home and rant about how everyone’s driving me nuts to Jeremy.
How productive is that? I’m complaining about people complaining!!!
It’s horrible and I catch myself feeling that way, but why can’t I just pull myself out of the mood? If I know I’m just complaining, why do I keep doing it? It’s like a never-ending cycle.
I really need to meditate. I find myself so busy through out the day. By the time I get into bed…I blog…and then I’m ready to crash! I tell myself I’m too busy to take a minute for myself and relax. Calm my mind.
I need to make a change. Probably a few. I need to get in a new frame of mind.
Tomorrow I have to take care of some business. I’m trying to stay positive. It shouldn’t take long, but I have to meet up with someone who I would really rather not see. This is a perfect time for me to practice what I preach. Let’s take care of business, smile, and move on! Luckily, I get to have lunch with my friend from Eureka and Jerms afterwards!!
Oddly enough….writing this blog has helped me. It really puts into perspective of how ridiculous I can be!!
Now all I need to do is put this stuff to use. Tonight…I shall take 20 minutes and relax. I will clear my mind and take a moment for myself.
Thanks for listening!
P.S. I miss Eureka.
I had every intention of blogging last night. I walked into the bedroom to grab my laptop, glanced at the television and got sucked into a Marilyn Monroe movie. I blame this on my husband! 😉 I feel horrible that in my ‘one year of blogging’ I already missed one day! Today I will make up for it. You are lucky enough to get 2 post today. That’s right folks….2 post in one day! So here we go…Welcome to yesterdays post.
Hi it’s Friday!! (just go with it!) School has been fabulous this week. The boys are doing great and I have to say Jeremy and I are doing pretty well with it also.
I will admit…I have stressed myself out on more than one occasion. Home schooling is a huge deal. You want to make sure your kids are getting educated and that’s a lot of pressure to put on yourself. You want the best for them. I feel great about it now that were back into routine. It feels so awesome to sit down with your kids and teach them. Watching them grow and learning. I wouldn’t change it for the world.
We’ve made some changes this week.
1. We started school!
2. We started couch to 5k.
3. I started my blogging everyday for a year!
4. We made a list of things we need to do everyday. Exercise. Craft. Work. School. Fun Family time. etc.
Check out this awesome dry erase board we got to help keep us focused.
We put it in our bedroom, so it’s the first thing we see when we wake up. I love it and I especially love that my husband wrote “Make wife happy!’ You can find this and other super cute items here. I thought this was great for our new journey in life. Just a helpful reminder everyday of things to do.
Changes are hard, but they are also exciting. By changing a few things this week, I feel like we’re on a better path. Taking control of our day. Creating what we want and making it happen. It’s helped me not stress out so much. Even if I fail at something, it’s not the end of the world. I can try again and do better next time!
What are some things you do throughout your day to keep you on track and focused? I’d love for you to share! Also if you home school, I’d love to hear your experience.
See you in a few hours!